March 11, 1999

Even when there is joy of some kind in my life their is damper on it. V--- still is not calling me or even responding to my email. That really pisses me off and hurts me. We have disagreed about all kinds of stuff over the past thirteen years and she has never acted this bitchy. I wonder what her problem is. I can only guess that it is the fact we are moving farther away. And when I talk about farther away, I'm talking maybe five miles farther then where we are now. Surely that isn't it but you never can tell. I also can't believe she would act this way when she is so close to Wild Child. This girl is the godparent of my child and I have let their relationship get really close. Something I have not been too keen on since my mom died. After my mom died I started to let Wild Child spend more time with my good friend Kim's mother, she died twelve weeks after my mom died, and Wild Child was heartbroken, so I have been very careful about who I let watch and care for Wild Child. I don't want her to think that every time we turn around people die or leave. The other day Wild Child kept saying V--- and acting like she was talking to her on the phone, it really bothered me to think she is acting so mean and distant. In my emails I asked her on two different occasions what her problem was and that she could at least respond, but I still haven't got an answer. I guess I'm going to let it drop and not email or call her, until she gets off her high horse. It will be hard not to call her when so much is going on right now with us getting this house, and all the new gossip I've collected over the past week.