| In Depth and Personal
I'm really aggravated with my extended family this morning. I'm tired of being taken
advantage of, I'm tired of being lied to, and I'm tired of the under handedness.
My sister and I have gotten really close since the death of my mother. Where there was
always a strain there is less of one now. This new closeness has not diminished her
doubled edged tongue that can in one minute be full of kindness and another slash you with
harshness and cruelty. As a child, I often cringed at confrontations with her because she
is actually more quick tongue then I am. She can't argue constructively so she strikes low
blows. For years I have listened to underhanded off the cuff remarks. I've kept my mouth
shut to avoid any confrontation with the one person in my family I am remotely close too
at the moment. I feel weak whenever I realize she has lied to me or done something
completely underhanded.
A few weeks ago we discussed whether or not she and her family would be coming to
Christmas dinner. It was decided that they were so we discussed a time. My Dad would be
unable to come at noon, because he had other obligations but would come later to see the
children open their gifts. This was fine with me, but then she chimed in that maybe we
should do it at a later time, like four or five, so all of us could be together. I thought
it was a good idea, and she then said that she would fix a roast instead of the
traditional turkey or ham since it was at my house (I have to clean, cook, etc).
Little did I know that "SUCKER" had been stamped upon my forehead.
For the past two days I have been trying to get in contact with my sister about
Christmas Dinner and working on our Dad's Christmas gift. Finally last night I reached
her. She went into a spill about how busy she had been. Then I brought up the cooking of
the roast. There was silence. Either she forgot that she was going to cook it or realized
that she dug herself into a hole. I could tell by the way she was talking she didn't want
to cook the roast, and then I found out why. She was having people over at noon for a
Christmas Dinner. "Hmmmmm," I thought to myself, "so this is the reason you
suggested an evening dinner, so this is the reason you are acting like you do not want to
cook a roast."
You are probably wondering why this bothers me. It bothers me that she didn't come out
and say "We are having people over at noon Christmas Day for dinner." If that
had been the case I would have said, "Ok, then we will just have dinner at noon and
all of us get together around five to open gifts." So instead of having one person
who has already eaten a huge meal, we will have four more. I felt like she was
underhanded. I asked her point blank, "Do you want me to cook something
instead?"
Now I am cooking the whole god-damn meal. I'm cleaning, I'm cooking, and I'm cleaning
the mess up. Lovely, just fucking lovely. Everyone else will just show up with full
bellies, feeling lazy and tired from all the other days activities and I will be slaving
for nothing.
Next year we are having Christmas Dinner at Noon.
Just Another Face In The Crowd
I went to Sam's and the grocery store this morning. It was actually not crowded. On my
way out of the neighborhood I got gas in the car and was shocked at how much it was per
gallon, $1.35. Seems like the gas stations are going to milk this Y2K hysteria for all its
worth.
At Sam's I bought our Christmas ham and at the grocery store picked up some potatoes
and rolls. I was looking at bread and noticed that a loaf of bread was $1.98. I was
shocked! So I decided to walk around the store and see what else had gone up on price.
Milk, $3.26! Coffee, $4.99! Tuna in a can, $.79! I guess the grocery stores are getting
ready for Y2K too!
The Church of Kim
Tonight is Christmas Eve. As a little girl, we would sit around and listen to the story
of Jesus being born and pray. A nativity scene sat on the piano, and we were reminded of
the importance of Jesus' birth. I was thinking about all this tonight. I thought about my
mother, and I wondered what she would say about my unbelief, my pagan ideals, and the fact
that I am raising my child as far from Christianity as I can get. For some reason I just
can't escape these thoughts.
Random Ramblings About My Life
I bought an 8.26lb ham for $15.67
I made eight dozen cookies and stuffed mushrooms.
Jeff drank too much wine.
I hate me Christmas tree.
My friend K--- gave me some beautiful millenium
mugs.
The Cools called from out of town to wish us a
Merry Christmas.
There is a gas leak on our street.
I met the newest additions to the street, Steve
and Christine. She is six months pregnant.
I have three packages to mail out as soon as I get
some money.
Jeff gets his check on the 31st.
I hope.
By the way, Happy Holidays! |