The beginning made me think of Elizabeth and when she was born and the first year of her life, and how during that time my mother died. The line, "but I fear I have nothing to give" , is a clear description of how I felt after my mother's death. I had given all I had to my mother and a newborn child.   I had nothing left to give my family, my marriage or myself. I often felt alone and wondered how I would pull myself out of the depression.

"I have so much to lose here in this lonely place"

This is exactly what I felt when I was at home everyday. I had friends, I had a child and husband but I felt like I was trapped in my own home, with no escape and I was lonely. I felt like I was losing who I was and what I wanted from my life. It was then that I started questioning my beliefs in god and evaluating what was really important to me. I lost a lot during this time. I lost religion, I lost god, and I lost some idealistic views about life. I gained   perspective and direction and I eventually pulled myself out of my lonely place.

When I hear "Fear" I am reminded of my limitations. I recall my grief and depression and how that period of my life changed me. It's a song about where I was a year ago but I'm just now hearing it, understanding it and being thankful that I am out of it.

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